Update Log
Update (27/11/2023): AHA YES SCREW YOU CSS FILE I FINALLY HAVE A SIDEBAR also my brain has been nothing but Starkid for like the past month, ya'll should go check them out if you like musicals
Update (29/11/2023): I think I'm gonna try make the start of an animatic tonight because the final chorus of Some Kind of Hero fits the end of Nerdy Prudes Must Die so well!!!
Also, I'm going to start putting some art up! Starting with an older one, check out the art page for it.
Update (5/2/2024): So to my credit, I did START that animatic I just never finished it lol
It may take me a while to, especially since although I like seeing it, it's not gonna look like my ideal vision that I've been repeating in my head for months. I've still been doing plenty though! I started writing a superhero au fanfic for those same characters and I'm up to 15,000 words!! Hilarious how I did that on my free time but struggled to work on my 2000 word assignment. In my defense, the fanfic doesn't require research and isn't accessed plus I get the sweetest comments on it! I'm gonna dig through my folders and try find another old bit of art to post, then maybe work on my Minecraft base. (The Fox Burrow, my years old pride and joy :D) For today's link...
A really good and underrated cover of Cool as I Think I Am that I found!
Update (13/2/2024): Today I learned professional tag is a thing that exists and WOW that is so cool! Man I wish they showed this on TV more it is epic
I'll find something else to put in the art tab, then after dinner I think I'm gonna work on patching Level 33. For context, Level 33 is a board game I made on Tabletop Simulator with like 35 boards, all with different rules. It is one of my other pride and joys lol. I only ended up playing it with a couple friends a couple times, and it needs some bug fixing to hit the sweet spot of confusing, but also still playable. My current notes to fix it are: Add more spaces to some boards and less spaces to others, add a 'city shopping' deck for Level 15, add an exit from Yahtzee to Level 24, have the Shopkeeper turn up more, and have more party member cards. Love me a confusing game that has an 11 page player manual that is blacked out and you unlock it each time you find an exit. I also ended up making lore for it with a bunch of characters because I am incapable of not adding lore to things apparently lol. I'll maybe put that in the art tab today :)
(2/11/2024): Uh that didn't age well. I'm gonna leave it for the sake of preserving the past but please don't support that guy. It's not in my loved videos anymore, but here's something that is! That's still board game themed!
Update (16/02/2024): "If our blood has carbon dioxide in it, does that make it sparkling blood?"
Yeah my parents got a sodastream so I've been joking that they're gonna start sparkling everything and me and my sibling are gonna have to stage an intervention when they get to sparkling soup
Here's a really funny parody I found *explosion sounds* "GUMBO I'M HERE" "GRAIN??"
Update (28/02/2024):"'You'll die alone' is a horrible phrase because it says your friends and family arn't enough, but most of all it implies you arn't enough" - Me
Yeah I'm listening to Green by Cavetown so I'm feeling bittersweet today. I did go to a club for the first time yesterday and it was actually pretty fun! Still not gonna be a regular thing for me tho lol.
Here, check out Green, it's a beautiful song.
Update (22/03/2024): I come up with this fun new board game called "Wizardry and Bureaucracy", it is a masterpiece lol. Well it will be once I make it, which will take a while. Especially since I REALLY should be focusing on uni right now but oh well. I'm gonna pop something new in the art tab before I cook dinner cause I'm bored and it's been a while.
Here's a really cool animation I love
Update (10/04/2024): Everyone, I have bought a new mug

I have not stopped giggling to myself for the past hour this is the best thing I have ever purchased in my entire life
Update (2/11/2024): Wow it has been a WHILE
Top 5 things I've done in the last 6 months, in no particular order:
- Move house
- Learn how to burn a disc and made a custom Nerdy Prudes Must Die DVD and case
- Manually caption an entire Be More Chill bootleg
- Graduate university
- Cook steak for the first time
So yeah I've done that and a bunch of other stuff. While I'm here I also wanted to share a bunch of songs that I ignore the romantic/sexual implications of because of the ANIMATIC POTENTIAL
- Fire Alarm by Castlecomer
- Lose Control by Hedley
- House of Memories by Panic! At The Disco
- Oh, Death by SUGR?
- Crazy = Genius by Panic! At The Disco
Damn, so many videos I've got saved to my Be More Chill Playlist are unlisted now, I'm gonna put a link to one of the shit post ones because I cannot stop laughing at it lol
I don't care what anyone says this is hilarious
Update (22/01/2025): 2025 time woooooooooooooooooo time to fully develop brain
SO yeah hi it's me again, just randomly felt like updating. I've been working on one of my OC universes more recently: Cursed Again. I'm not sure I've mentioned it here yet? Let me check. Nope, I haven't. The character design rule is that you pick an animal, then give them the colouring of a different animal. Some also just have a random extra feature for added *chaos*. All the animals have magic to pick up stuff near them and use technology, but some have learned to use more advanced magic and have to wear cool witch hats when they do so. I'll pop some art from it in the art page and explain a couple of the characters :)
Continuing my tradition of adding a YouTube link...
I've been listening to this song on repeat while writing this and it slaps
Update (24/01/2025): hey wanna hear more songs I ignore the romantic implications of because they'd make killer animations?
- Good Luck, Babe! by Chappell Roan
- Greek Tragedy by The Wombats
- Cosmic Love by Florence + the Machine
- Cross my Heart by Marianas Trench
- Drumming Song by Florence + the Machine
I just felt like doing that, now I'm gonna go back to reading fanfiction lol
my sibling sent me this cool beat saber video the other day
Update (24/02/2025): HEY WANNA HEAR ME TALK ABOUT SONGS WITH AROMANTIC IMPLICATIONS? That's rhetorical, this is a website. (hey looks it's been exactly a month since updating!) I'm doing some ANALYSIS here, so not songs that are explicitly aspec. Like, yeah of course Home and D&D + Asexuality and I Don't Need Love and For Me are aspec/partly aspec THAT WAS ON PURPOSE
Love Stuck by Mother Mother!!! THE IMPLICATIONS!! Love being stuck in your head and daydreams, being elusive and escaping! "Maybe it's just time that it takes" being the thing everyone says with the whole 'you just haven't met the right person' thing. And the chorus line!! "I've got to give my love to my soul and let go", being that you have to accept yourself and love yourself rather than who you're expect to be and be with!! PLUS IT'S A BANGER!!!!
Weird suggestion but hear me out: dumb dumb by mazie. CONSIDER: "Disappointment takes us by surprise", "There must be something in the cornflakes, making it hard for us to think straight", (the non-horny cornflakes meme LOL) "Making jokes, not taking any responsibility". Listen with intention IT'S THERE I SWEAR
Do My Own Thing by American Authors, like. It has some pretty aro coded lines. "I watched my friends fall out of love and go insane(...) I never wanna be like that(...) I never was into that" "I'ma do my own thing" "My heart don;t beat any other way". It's RIGHT THERE
Wow, I'm Not Crazy by AJR. AJR really out here unintentionally making songs with the most aroace implications ever (I'LL GET TO THE ELEPHANT IN THE ROOM), this song absolutely describes the feeling of finding community who feel the same as you, and realising you're not imagining it. "You're just like me, you took all your vitamins, you're just like me and you take delight in it". "When you talk it's like wow, I'm not crazy". The implications. They be implying. But SPEAKING OF AJR!!
There are others that I will be ranting about at other times by finally most of all:
ALL TURNING OUT PARTS BY AJR??? Basically every line of those songs feels like a personal attack, especially the first one.
Starts with Turning Out, about how love isn't how it was taught to us! Listen to the pre-chorus: "Am I ready for love, or maybe just a best friend, should there be a difference? Do you have instructions? Maybe I'm stuck, on what I see on TV, I grew up on Disney, but this don't feel like Disney". RIGHT IN THE FEELS! "I thought the birds would sing and sparks would fly, but it's just quiet. Am I cruel? Or am I ignorant, or was I fooled by the stories I knew?" Literally my life. And the other lines about growing up and worrying about the people you care about sticking around? PAIN. IN THE BEST WAY.
And then there's Turning Out Pt. ii, about thinking you loved someone, but realising you didn't, you just liked the idea of being with them. Relatable as fuck. I have been asked out when I was younger and said yes because that's what I was supposed to do, not realising that romantic feelings are different to platonic ones. With banger lines like: "I think I probably wasn't in love with you, I think I probably loved the idea of you" and "I said it back to you 'cause you said it first".
And then Turning Out pt iii. This one is a bit more interpretation, since the song is more obviously about working things out WITH a partner, but there is absolutely plenty of aspec interpretation to be found. Listen: "'Cause half the time I can't love right, and I can't have sex and we both get quiet", "Everyone's got it, what do I not get?", and the line "I'm half yours and you're all mine" hits so hard, knowing that when I'm older my friends and family will be what I've got, but there's a decent chance I'll be a much smaller part of theirs due to their immediate family taking priority. And that makes sense, and I continue to love the idea of living alone with a couple cats, but it's still bittersweet to think about. Upsides and downsides, right? And then that FINAL PART. This song series feels like travelling through life and figuring youself out, and it's mostly depressing and reflective, BUT THEN:
"Don't overthink it, one day at a time kid, add up the days, you got someone to do life with
Love isn't big kid, it's little and quiet
Let's do today, I think you'll turn out to like it"
Yeah that made me cry the first time I heard it. Yeah, maybe love can be just a part of your life, it doesn't have to be the centre of it. Maybe everything will be okay, one day at a time, you've got people by your side. Maybe you'll worry, but you can get through today, and be happy. Oh now I'm crying again. I love this song so much, it means so much to me.